hey there!
hellooo!!! i am finally back! oh and whoever nomad is i bet he or she is benita! hahah.
just guessing oh wells. heck lah.
okay. these few days tests were crap. as in seriously i am going to like get into single science or something. oh shit. okay shant talk about it before i feel worse.
and why i feel worse.
one track.
i trained so damn freaking hard and i aint representing school. at first i thought i just dont have individual event. then mr tan said i was in relay. so yah lah. school team lor. so i trained like almost everyday of the first two weeks of training. and even did some sort of hurdles training. then third week was intensive which was morning training then afternoon again. and like every other training i almost died doing 500m. stupid lah. give me false hope cos i was still doing normal 400m runner training asshole teachers. then when like last week. i ask coach who was running 4by4 for like today. she siad you lah. if not who. of course i felt relieved like yay at least ive a relay to get points. then today went for warmup. asked ms lim who was which runner. she said later. so chummy and i and the rest went to warm up lah. then later she said chummy and i were not going to run. but like at least chummy still got own event. then i am like left with nothing seriously nothing. okay lah i know i always say that i wish i could be reserve or something, but i guess somehow anyone in my place wouldnt want that to happen. and it did to me. so i warm up for no good reason. trained so hard with school team. got so many scoldings. and like was thinking like at least ive got a relay. but now ive got nothing.
seriously nothing. all my efforts down the drain. kinda sad. but yeah whatever, i dont really show my emotions in front of everyone. my face is kinda emotionless only when i am angry then i yeah angry lah. haiii..... gone.
then to make things worst i am doing so bad for my studies lah. ive been failing so many things. i really dont know what happened lah. and i think i am suffering from insomia. it is either that or i am too stressed till i cant sleep. i like dream of my problems lah. and no i am not quiting jap cos thats not the source of the problem. nope.
and since my mum is literally hating me. cos one i flunk my tests. and like is going crazy. and my bro is improving a lot. so yeah my mum is biased. she can be angry with my bro but scold and beat me. yeah. shes evil. i reached home at 9 today. and she like screamed at me like siao lah. sometimes i really wish that she could just get lost. seriously i am like suffering from mama-syndrome. when she called me just now at eight seriously, i was so scared lah. i wanted to cab home but was scared. cos it was pretty dark and if she finds out i am dead. so yeah she just screamed at me like siao. sometimes i wonder why other parents can trust their children so much. like yeah. not like my parents. sick of them. wheres my grandma when i need her. why keep scolding why keep beating. haiii... i am old enough to take care of myself.
then yeah. i dont feel like blogging.
whatever. all my efforts gone. and i dont think i will be running for finals. like yeah suzy was like: krystal you may have a another chance, if on final day yinglin leg pain. you can help her.
wth. i know i am reserve lah. but i dont like to replace someone else when she put in so much effort to get into finals. i dont like to cheat others of their feelings. like how asshole coach and suzy did. ughhh...
whatever it is. it wasnt nice. whatever.
well but dinner was great! very funny! laughed like shit! only happy part of the day. so yay!!! tanks weiting and ahem and inez and loo. well i guess you guys erased my disappointment away! wasnt even thinking about4by4! yayayyy!!! hahha. oh well. got more to post about dinner. later i will. someday! yeap!
well then. bye
sayoonara.
